y don you think about it

i know it will not remain forever.
i know even how hard i try
nothing will change
but cant you care more than this?
or even try to save this situation?
i dont wan to appeal for anything from u
i just wan u to face ur true feeling
i dont wan to force you or make u up exactly like wat i wan
but i think i have made u so
since i know the feelings between us
everything was ruined
i started to think sth nonsense
talk sth out of sense
or even miss u insanely like a mentally-problemed person
a smile,a joke, a sms,anything u gave me
nth……its just nth! argh! i hate to say so!!!
until today,i cant understand u
wat r u thinking was so unpredicable
i m already used to it……
used to stay awake to wait for my phone to lights up
used to stare at my phone n ur eyes
used to worry why u r so good to the others
at the same time u said u like me?!
i admit it, i m jealous
but its just used to it--i tried to persue myself
i m just used to it , nth more
but it doesn't work!!!!!
y cant u understand???
i don think i can afford anymore
give me sometime to take myself out
just if…if u don wan to continue anymore
i don wan to wait alone in the silent pitch dark
i don wan to suffer like this anymore,
u know,the pain has been lingering for a whole week!
7 days, 168hrs, 10080minutes,and 604800 seconds!!
i just hope i can 437
iloveyou
argh! gosh!i m going to mad!
a stupid! an idiot!
like wat? who m i?
y i cant stop thinking n caring wat he thinks?????
just leave me alone!!!!
pls……pls leave me alone……
i m hurt u know?
hurt! because of love,again!